you'll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
There was a time when everyone said it would be OK and things would get better and I said it wouldn’t be OK, IT would get better but life would not be OK, maybe there was a chance in 5 years. Well a part of me wanted to believe them but so far they are wrong and it all feels the same as I new it would!
It has come apparent to me now beyond all questioning that life just goes downhill. started slowly at 23 and began to pick up pace by 24 now at 25 there is basically nothing left, most people i knew have moved on and have other stuff to do. I don’t no what i did wrong to end up in this situation I just thought there would always be people about and I would always have something going on, how did they avoid becoming me? I suppose eventually you are just left with your job and your loneliness. Everyone talks about oh its hard to get a job a good career after uni, anyone can do that if they try, no one warned me that when you get to 25 you will have no friends because they will all have better stuff to do and you’ll have no options because you’ve tried everything to meet new people and stimulate your life
While many of these comments are lewd and vulgar, only three of them actually appear to be examples of sexism. While demanding a woman to show her tits, or commenting about how you want to perform sexual acts with her is vulgar; by itself it is not…
I’m going to give up, going out, except in Ampthill or specific gig/events in London. I’m also going to try and not get so incredibly drunk and dance like a complete maniac as its just got so old and I’ve been doing it forever! I want to do something different when drunk! I’m going to lose weight! my other aim is to go camping at weekends! I would say do something about my god awful hair but I don’t think anything can be done
My feelings move at a glacial pace, the emotions of long forgotten times still echo in the back of my head. Everyone moves on and on and on again but I have no opportunities to move on just time to reflect on the past and the past of the past
“The whole of life is just like watching a film. Only, it’s as though you always get in ten minutes after the big picture has started, and no-one will tell you the plot, so you have to work it out all yourself from the clues.”—“Moving Pictures” by Terry Pratchett (via kari-shma)
“I’m lonely. And I’m lonely in some horribly deep way and for a flash of an instant, I can see just how lonely, and how deep this feeling runs. And it scares the shit out of me to be this lonely because it seems catastrophic.”—Augusten Burroughs, Dry (via fawun)
I am always desperate to fall in love again! I literally need to my life is incomplete and lacks meaning without it! People say oh don’t concentrate on love concentrate on other areas of life. So I did this and quickly realized that love is the only difficult part of life. Without too much effort I managed to sort out finishing of my MSc and find my dream job all in a few months. so now what? I put 100x the effort I put into the aforementioned things into finding love and get know where. Love is the only true challenge in life because your actions cannot influence it, no amount of effort can create someone to fall in love with you if they don’t exist.